seratas-ian.

here i am, at ampang, balik for only three days.
reached here yesterday by bus and gonna go back to taiping tomorrow with bus too.

so yeah, so far, i'm 50-50 okay there, not so okay lah since i'm new en.
hopefully everything will be all fine later on :-)

anyways, salam ramadhan to all of the muslims.
may this ramadhan will be a very great month for all of us.

so here are some of my new friends.

tomorrow is the day.

well, only a few hours left to spend my time at ampang, before i'm off to perak tomorrow morning, after subuh. i'll be missing each and everyone of my lovelies, and my family too. hoping that i get to come back here, sooner or later.

may god bless me, always and all my precious too. i do hope that i'll be a strong girl there and i'm gonna get myself busy studying so that i wont think of nonsense things there. i should make my parents proud of me, and i should prove to them that i can change and be a good daughter.

to my precious ones;

do miss me, and do not forget me. i'm hoping the best for all of you and wish me all the best! it's gonna be a different school, different environment, different teachers, different friends, different schoolmates/classmates/dormmates and everything is gonna be different there but all i know is my love toward you guys wont change a bit. may all of us, achieve successful life and always always always remember that we have each other to hold on.
see you guys, soon. loving all of you, so much. xoxo

you came.... you left and you return.

why on earth they must have the 'people come and go' ? i bet that if this dont exist, people wont get so much pressure to accept the fact about this. okay, what am i saying??!!! urgh

hm i'm trying to live my life to the fullest, but i cant. i just cant. not strong enough and i just cant be strong. what should i do? i need some strength oh lord, help me please.

decisions made!

I'M GOING TO SM SAINS RAJA TUN AZLAN SHAH ((seratas))!!
today is quite a happy day yet a sad day for me too. i ended my school day with packing my things up and wait for mama papa to come and fetch me up. today, i was officially an EX-tikl. i miss my dormmates already, my schoolmates too! :'/

oh lord, pls give me the strength to go through all these. i know i can do it, i just need a little of strength to always chin up.

may this decision will be the right decision for me and my future, amin.

so, here i am.

feeling all gloomy these past few days. cant think of anything right now. hoping that these things will end peacefully, and i get to live my own life back. i'm quite a happy-go-lucky girl, but nothing can make me feel better when i'm having a problem, only myself can cure itself. hahaha how? just get some rest, cry all day/night long, talk to someone about it and dont make me angry hah but it will take a lot of time to be okay again.

oh and i got an offer letter from seratas ((sek. men. sains raja tun azlan shah)) i'm thinking about it again and again, should i go or i shouldnt?? its too far, like hell far mannn. but i'm just worried about one thing, not about the distance, but can i get along with the students?

i'm just hoping that wtvr decisions that i will make, will be the best for me, amin.

solemnization.

alhamdulillah, dgn 2lafaz je, salawahani (moksu) sah jadi poksu's wife. may allah bless them with all his blessings and may allah ease everything for them. i'm just too happy to accept a new member on papa's side! she seems to be such a fun person to be with hehe maybe sebab muda lagi kann ((25 y/o)) sooo....
ألف مبروك وربنا يتمم بخير وعقبال البكارى

day by day.

on the first day of holiday, ((friday)). i went out with bella and we watch fast6! ngehehe the movie was beyond awesome. on saturday, we just went to wan's house to discuss some important things. oh and fyi; poksu (papa's youngest brother) gonna get married on 2nd june, this upcoming sunday. hehehe i cant wait! so, on sunday we went to the curve. bought a dress for the wedding.
on monday.... we dont go anywhere. hahaha and on tuesday i went to midvalley with bai, nanni, shauki, nadia and imran. i watched the ironman3 for the second time! haha and yeah, today... i just went to habibah's crib to just have a short good time with her.

and yeah, here i am, blogging.

till then, toodles x

it's holiday time!

haha so hi bloggie. i was quite busy and my pc rosak so yeah takde masa sgt nak blogging. so here i am, on the 6th day of the holiday! doing nothing now, just laying on my bed and listen to some songs. so here we go, gonna start with a story with my new family, klang's family. actually they're my friends but more to family to me.

on the first day i met them, i was quite shy sbb tak kenal sesiapa pun. yang kenal cuma abang, ayoy and jamil. but it took like only two hours to get to be close with them. so there are am, acap, alya, bella, ezanny, asun, shis, mok, ameir, ammar, faiz, aizal and many more, cant recall. they were just too awesome. never gonna forget them!

they are like my brothers and my sisters. fun to be with and always can count on them. hopefully i get to meet them very soon.

to klang's family, i miss you guys, take care and be good <3

birthday wish to my one and only, mok.

so here i go, firstly, happy belated 19th birthday to my dear, nur wahidah abdullah. sorry for this late post, but i'm the first one to wish you aite? hehe called her around 9pm at the hostel, and she was like awalnyaaaa wish hehe budak hostel en.. secondly, sorry i cant be with you to celebrate your birthday like last year. but i'll try to meet up with you very soon.

thirdly, all i want to say is, thank you. for everything, kak. for being right by my side. for entertain me whenever i need someone. hear all my problems & stories. being my counselor, the one that be mad at me for my wrongs and the one that support me in everything that i do. never fail to make me happy in any situation and never fail to be a good sister to me.

forthly, pls cepat kahwin. i'm sure that you and aiman will be a very sweet husband&wife one day. pls stay cute together and be a good wife, one day. insyaallah, amin :')

fifthly, please be my sister forever. dont ever forget me and dont even try to forget me.

lastly, happy belated birthday, again. enjoy and have a blast, kak.
i love you, always! <3

sucks big time.

asha used to say this to me, 'one day, you'll know how does it feels if the one you love, leaves you. and after that, you'll know how strong yourself really are.' i keep ignoring what asha said, but suddenly, when i'm in this situation, i can see the truth now. i do feel that myself is strong enough to go through all these its just, too many pressure and challenging things happened. i dont know how long myself can stand with all these shits, but i know, i have too. nak tak nak, kena juga face it. eventho, it hurts, a lot. I'VE TO FACE IT. alone? yes, sometimes alone. but look around ppl, you've a lot of ppl that cares about you. open up your eyes, they are always right beside you. 

i cant deny that i've done so many mistakes in my life. i repeat, so many. but i know that, i can change. and i will. it takes time. slowly, step by step. i just need some encouragement from my love ones. being a girl, a teenager sucks big time. how i wish i can turn back the time where i was a little girl, that only knows how to smile, laugh and cry, nothing else. but life must go on. being a teenager teaches me a lot of things. the DOs and DON'Ts. can't hesitate myself from doing such a silly thing that can ruin my life, aite?

so here we go, ppl. keep your head up and try to be better than anyone else in a good way, each and every second :)

teenage life

Teenage life is a critical days for teenagers.   
It is the time wherein we experience identity crisis, we were troubled of so many things around us.  
The physical changes that occurs commonly to a teenager, also we experience some emotions or feelings that is difficult to explain.   In this stage some of the teenagers feel in love in which some find it difficult to handle.   They become obsessed and others become rebellious to their parents thinking that, they’re parents could not support nor will be against with what they want.
Teenage life must not be confused.   Teenagers should not make the flow of his life too fast, explore it but remember there’s limits or boundaries that should be consider.   Being careful with everything is more important than regretting one single wrong action done.
Teenagers should take the advices of their parents or elders for these advices will help them understand their self better.   It will help them become a better person.
My life as a teenager is such wonderful.   Though sometimes, I experienced doubts and some teenagers will say that my life is a boring one, I’m very much sure that I’m in the right track for my parents guide me always.
I’ m proud of being myself, thinking and analyzing everything to make my life as teenager good as ever, no regrets but good memories to reminisce when time comes.
Teenage life is the most exciting, memorable experience that one should treasure!   Just enjoy life!

motivate.

'i know but takkan lah, he took away your life kot, you're here. in this life, you cant be liddis, if not, you're planning to fail, in everything. arif nak yana yang dulu, happy go lucky, always smiling & sentiasa happy. where's that yana? the one yang arwah sayang sgt, suka puji yana especially time yana senyum, because of your taring, and the one yang suka gelak. c'mon dear, arwah fik mesti sedih if dia tahu yana mcm ni. can you change? not for me, or for arwah, or for anyone, but for yourself. dont be stupid, yana. you're too small to be living in this world liddis. live your life and chin up!' -arif zulhairi.

sick.

being sick is exactly is a no fun for me. yes, maybe best sebab dapat attention from people all around us but no bila kita menyusahkan orang and kena tahan sakit tu and.... medicines! gahhh i hate those things.

i do hope that i'll recover very soon... very very soon... amin.

Karnival Vokasional 1 Malaysia.

last saturday, i went to kolej vokasional klang to attend a carnival called Karnival Vokasional 1 Malaysia. i went there with my bestfriend, baizura razali. we had fun there eventho we didnt attend the jogathon at our school. we had a lot of delicious food to eat hehehe so here are some pictures.